My personal worst moment of the year 2003 was late afternoon January 31st. At Saratov's Districts Court, public prosecutor Colonel Verbin demanded for me quarter of century of imprisonment. Ten years of imprisonment for allegedly planning terrorist attacks on territory of Kazakhstan, 4 years for preparation to organize outlawed armed formations, 8 years for a purchase of Kalashnikovs and 3 years for a call to overthrow the Government of Russian Federation. Exactly 25 years demanded Verbin, that tall and skinny as a match colonel, wearing blue uniform of Prosecutor.
But "by the way of partial reduction" merciful and compassionate Russian Justice, personified by colonel, demanded for me "only" 14 years of imprisonment in the camp of "severe regime." It was worstiest day of 2003. But going to court on February 4, just a few days later, early in the morning I saw on television face of my wife, Natasha. Television said that my wife have died as a saint during her sleep at night from 2 to 3rd February. Then, until the day of April 15, I have lived under the heavy burden of 14 years. On April 15 I was miraculously sentenced to 4 years. I know, I wrote about that, but anyway, it was my worst season of life.
The worst day of 2003 for Mother Russia was December 7th, the Election Day. Putin's people have finished their last touch of subjugation of Russian parliament. For now Russia has parliament what will work staying on its knees.
Amongst numerous worst days of 2003 I can place also the day when Colonel Putin announced that he is going to run for a next term of presidency. During his first term from 2000 until 2003 about sixty (60!) National-Bolsheviks were imprisoned or still are in prisons. As we have reason to believe that second term of colonel will be not different from first term, so we are preparing to live through hard times. Colonel's times.
Bad boys are ruling my country. So bad, that they are not needed anybody to help them. They don't want people from outside to join them. They just want to be bad themselves and to stay in power as long as they can. Forever. They are the worst kind of bad boys, because they believe that they are good boys. These colonels don't understand that they are violent, unlawful, repressive, unjust. So everyday in 2003 for Russians is a bad day. Even my best day of 2003, June 30, when I was liberated on parole, from the camp near city of Engels, was in some way also bad day. Because I walked out of camp, but not to freedom. I walked into country with biggest police force in whole world, to the country where everybody is controlled. From behind the bars I walked straight under police boot.
I should stop that. Marc Ames will have a hard times as editor, if I will continue. For the sake of reason I will stop, although my emotions calling me to continue. I will stop.
The day of Khodorkovsky's arrest was also very bad day, as on that very day Russian population have received proof that our present Government will persecute anybody, even that very same social class whose interests the Government claims to defend. Our Government proved that he is a senseless, mindless beast. That it bites because its nature demands to bite. Anybody, and why not its own kind. But if that Government is eating its own kind, what should expect from that Government WE, who are not of its kind?
No, I am not exaggerating. No, I am not a pessimist. No, that is not an influence of Russian sleazy winter, not an influence of Muscovite gray, filthy weather. Now, when Communist Party of Russian Federation saying that the results of elections are falsified, that "Yabloko" and "Union of Rightist Forces" have actually overlapped the five percent barrier, I believe the Communist Party. I don't believe an outraged Veshnyakov, maniacal servant of Putin's regime. I also believe Berezovski, when he claims that FSB have executed explosions of Russian buildings in Russian cities. Because I saw with which degree of easiness that Government have decided to "liberate" Nord-Ost hostages with a help of unknown gaz. 139 hostages were liberated from life. No Government minister wrote a letter of resignation. They are supermen of cruelty. No one said: We are guilty. No one was sentenced, no one accused. It is monstrous Government. The worst is that they don't understand that.